PTL

My OB/GYN called today and said that my biopsy was clear and I am fine....WOO HOO NO CANCER...Amazing....Thank you to everyone for their thoughts and prayers....God is good

Why

I was confronted tonight with the fact that I am not being who I am supposed to be...But here's my question? How in the hell did I get to this point? Why? That's all I can come up with is WHY and HOW? Please God explain to me....This isn't me..This isn't who I am supposed to be... How could I have become this person? This mean mean mean person.... And why can I not move past the hurt like they did... Why did everyone else move on except me...I don't want to get over it... I don't want to accept it... I want answers..I want to be loved...I want to know that I'm wanted and needed... Why doesn't anyone understand? Why and How? I need to be that person I was... I hate this person...I HATE this person.... I can't do this.... The world is spinning and I can't make it stop... Please make it stop for just a second so I can be that person I was... I cannot believe I have caused so much pain and hurt... I can't believe what people are saying.... WHY and HOW? Oh God I plead with you to make it go away....please...please...please...make it go away...